When I was eight-years-old, I was convinced that I was going to die. Why? Well, for years I thought it was because I watched an episode of Fresh Prince in which Uncle Phil has a heart attack, which freaked me out so much that I was afraid that eating anything unhealthy would lead to my immediate, untimely death. I went to therapy because of this fear way back when I stopped being afraid to eat chili cheese fries this fear, and fascination with death has remained. It was only in the last few years that I realized that it was actually a violent incident that left one of my uncles in the hospital–and eight-year-old Ashley in a scary hospital waiting room–that was the real trigger for me. He was fine (so was Uncle Phil) but the damage is done: I’m basically obsessed with death.
So yeah, I’m definitely morbid. This isn’t necessarily a good thing or a bad thing…it’s just a thing. If you’re in the same boat then you’ll definitely relate to these 10 things.
1. Obviously, you think about death…like, a lot.
2. You’ve spent hours on some of the most awful Wikipedia pages about mysterious deaths and plane crashes.
3. You’ve seriously contemplated the myriad of ways you might die in the future.
4. You quite like graveyards, actually.
5. You’re super into macabre movies and TV shows. Spooky stuff rules, period.
6. Whenever you’re looking up somebody who died, you immediately go to the death section to find out how.
7. Your curiosity with how people died becomes awkward when people you know lose somebody because…you really just want to know how it happened but you can’t ask without sounding like an insensitive jerk.
8. You’d probably go to a morgue if you were invited…be honest.
Fun fact: I went to a morgue on a school field trip in senior year. It was wild.
9. Your thoughts when you’re alone in bed can be pretty dark.
10. Sometimes you hate how preoccupied you are with death but, hey, it’s not going anywhere…
Are you obsessed with death, too? Do you have an idea as to why? Tell us in the comments!