There is a lot going on right now. All the energy is focused on you. You may be exhausted just thinking about what you expect of yourself. Do yourself a favor and enjoy the moment. You are not one to miss an opportunity, but you do miss out on fun all the time. Your fun might be to watch a dark comedy alone on a weekend, and that is just fine. As long as you are actually truly enjoying yourself and relaxing, you really need to relax. If you feel impatient with your progress, visualize successful outcomes. Your imagination is a powerful tool.