By: Samonymous

Samonymous — Mon, 03 Dec 2012 05:11:58 +0000

I have been/have only recently stopped cyber bullying… and stalking. One specific girl. Growing up, I had a parent that pushed me to do anything she wanted me to do, so I did. Even if it ended up getting me hurt physically. She always had me in the internet drama. Posting things, saying things, encouraging the bullying. I did most of it in fear, but now that I am older I wonder how much of it was really me… and now because of it I have this urge inside me… I just have to see. I have bullied her many, many times over the internet, most of the nastiest moments being anonymous. She would always accuse me of doing it, but then I would just lie. I always had a great lie for every time I bullied her, or ‘stalked’ her web pages, always had an alibi. This has gone on for literally, years. She has even moved 700 miles away from me, I still couldn’t stop. I would search for her blogs. Anywhere she would put them, and I would always find them. I even would use proxies to view her web pages cause she eventually put a log on her blogs that would tell what ip addresses were visiting. I have got to stop. It isn’t right. There is already too much damage done from it, especially since she seems to have been able to get more ‘proof’ then usually that it is me and always has been me. This girl and I have gone back and forth for years. She even played her own hand in the bullying. But, she has stopped, many years ago, at least out in the public eye. I suppose I wouldn’t get so upset about what she has to say about me, if I just wouldn’t lurk… but I always just had to. I have closed myself off from the world because of this, because of what I have done. Lost ties with people, who I know know about this since we had the same set circle of friends, and how small of a town I live in (a town she used to live in as well), but these people never say anything to me about it… but they don’t have to, I know that they know and that is enough to cause me to go to my own dark corner. It is no one’s fault but my own. This is the first time that I have admitted to this secret in this much detail to anyone, even myself. Yes it is still ‘anonymous’ but I guess it’s a first step to getting better. Getting better and moving on. But I will never lose the stigma she has given me. No one likes to be labeled a ‘stalker’ in the place you live. I will have to live with this. Learn from my mistakes. Cyber Bullying hurts more then whomever you have singled out… It can do some serious damage to your own.

By: mitchie21

mitchie21 — Fri, 21 Sep 2012 13:33:43 +0000

Me and my friends had a burn book in high school. I hated the people around me. We were the ones that the “cool” kids considered “losers”, plus the teachers were biased. They would prioritize the ones that were rich and “cool”. I didn’t get into choir because I was too shy. I was shy but not to the point where I won’t sing just coz I come off shy and stuff. When you get labeled as something in hs, that’s how you’re going to be looked at for the rest of your years there. Anyway, I didn’t get in but this other girl WHO CAN’T SING AT ALL (not saying this out of bitterness) got in because she was popular. I hated every stinking moment in HS. So, me and my friends wrote stuff down on a notebook… It was filled with pure hate. I still have it but I no longer update it. I’ve learned a lot since I started college.

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