My First Real Kiss Was Worth The Wait

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My love life is a pretty consistent comedy of errors. I must have a studio audience watching me somewhere or a laugh track or something. As a kid, I was sure boys thought I was totally gross. As a defense mechanism, I tried my best to intimidate them until I was about 14. That’s when I got my first *internet boyfriend*. Yeah, that’s a thing that actually happened when I was hanging out in AOL chatrooms every day. Actually, it happened to me for about four years (don’t tell my dad!). So, as you might imagine, my list of “firsts” didn’t go quite as planned–including my first kiss. They happened-ish, but, I didn’t exactly come out of that experience as an emotionally/sexually competent 17-year-old.

After the rough, inevitable e-breakup, I arrived at college having vowed to “concentrate on -me- right now”, and that is naturally when I first laid eyes on him. He (dubbed the hottest sophomore in our dorm by popular vote) was dark, shaggy-haired, and so, so tall. I’d steal terribly obvious glances at him in the dining hall . . . and in the elevator . . . and hanging outside of his room (we lived on the same floor so this is not as creepy as it sounds . . . or maybe it IS exactly as creepy as it sounds . . . shut up), and in my fashion, I’d routinely make a fool out of myself hoping he’d pay attention to me.

I don’t know if any of that actually worked, but we did eventually interact, and, after stumbling through the awkward first conversation with him, I was smitten. Through the following weeks I was a bundle of nerves every time we met. He of course, was collected, cool, confident, suave, etc., and he, also of course, had the attention of many of the other freshman girls. I blushed and made sad attempts at flirting every time our paths crossed–and fumed whenever I saw him talking to anyone else.

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Halloween night rolled around, and, as is tradition at my college, a bunch of the students prepped to streak across campus in nothing but sneakers and shaving cream. Ever a shrinking violet, I never took part in this, but he did. Us nonparticipants would watch the shenanigans from the safety of our dorm balconies, and this particular Halloween, I had a vested interest in spectatin’. My roommates and I watched him run by with the crowd, and for a brief moment I wished I had the courage to run–-so very unsupported–-beside him.

I eventually slunk back to our floor’s study tent (the tent erected in our lobby for the purposes of “studying” . . . yeah, I don’t know what was up with that, either!). I heard the ringing of the elevator bell followed by some familiar shuffling steps. The tent flap unzipped and a friendly face popped in, “Mind if I join you?” I choked and giggled and nodded and he, still smelling of 99 cent shaving cream (a smell I’d cherish for years later), climbed on in beside me. We sat pretending to read in awkward tension for a while, his knee occasionally brushing against mine (in that “OMG did he mean to do that I think he meant to do that” kind of way).

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He eventually broke the silence commenting on something about relationships in his psych text book. This conversation turned to the topic of kissing (seriously, it’s like a sitcom, right?), and he asked me if I thought it weird to kiss with your eyes open. My heart was in my throat, my eyes darted to the floor, and I muttered abruptly, “Uh yeah, that’s totally weird!” Persistent, he moved dangerously close and, prefacing his next move with something like, “Hmmm, I don’t know . . . should we try it out?” he waited for my (terror-filled) eyes to meet his and laid one on me.

I was on the moon. Kissing with your eyes open isn’t weird. It’s the best! We continued, eyes open then closed then open again. I had no idea kissing could be like that – it was straight-up perfect. We were finally interrupted by one of our floor mates, curious about the suspicious tent-activity (our actions were most innocent, but that tent was tainted from that night on), and in a nervous huff I rushed back to my room. I spent the next hour gushing to my dearest best friend (seriously I think it was 3 in the morning at this point, she’s a trooper) and didn’t sleep, replaying the night’s events in my head for hours.

I think I did pretty badly on the test I had the next morning, but it was so worth it. He and I ended up spending the better part of our college careers together, and I got a glorious, much-needed re-do on all of my questionable “firsts.”

What was your first kiss like? Was it anything like my first kiss? Tell me everything in the comments!

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46 Comments

  1. avatararoon reganne says:

    in a summer season that i’ll not forget.that day is amazing to day to me b/c of i have a person who i love very much this woman is always busy but,i want to see always b/c i love very much then one day she is out from their compounds as a chance i am there then we seen each other whithout asking any thing i start kissing then i falling by her loving.today we are not with together we far appart.after that i determine one thing love on rail is meaning less,everybody should know first identity what is love means,what is true love and who i kiss realy unless if your love is not succees what it have meaning.

  2. avatarAnnie says:

    I was at a bonfire the night before fourth of July with a group of friends. The whole group (except for me, my best friend, and my guy friend) went down the beach a ways to play volleyball. Now for almost a year at this time my guy friend and I had had this flirting/hard to get thing going and he had tried to kiss me twice. Both times we were awkwardly interrupted. Once by another one of our friends and the other time by my grandma (yeah it was awkward!). So my best friend left to go bring her sister her phone so it was just us. We both got up and walked into these junglely looking trees with a big carved tiki. I was leaning down trying to read what people had carved into the tiki and stood up and he was just staring into my eyes. Slowly he moved in and gently kissed me. Not full on making out or anything, just lips. It was really amazing but kinda awkward too. It was just warm and tight and meaningful! As we slowly pulled apart one of my friends came out of seriously nowhere and started yelling about the food being ready and we were kinda shocked back into reality.

  3. avatarRebecca says:

    So, one of my close guy friends was over at my house, and so was one of my best friends (that’s a girl), and my friend and this guy kept secretly talking and I felt left out, and we were just about to leave, to take Dylan (the guy) home, my friend and him were talking just before outside the door of my room (while i was in my room) i went and hid behind the door waiting for them to come back in, when Dylan opened the door,he accidentally hit me really hard because i was behind it :( but then I slammed the door shut on his fingers, he was in pain for a few seconds, but then he snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me really close and walked forward a few steps pushing me against the wall kind of, at this point and just put my arms around his neck and had my head on his shoulder saying “I’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorrry!” For slamming his fingers in the door, and when i looked up he smiled and looked at my lips and then we both closed our eyes and he leaned in and yeah :) it wasn’t like, full on tongue kiss, but more those romantic ones you see in movies on just on the lips. when we pulled away we hugged and he whispered “i love you so much, beautiful” in my ear. it was the greatest day :333

  4. avatarMaggie says:

    At the time I was 13 and he was 12 and a half but whatever, so we were at a really lame school dance so me and my friends were just talking in the bathroom for a while and when I came out he was just standing there waiting for me. My friend gave me a shove, so we were standing pretty close together, it was kind of awkward. My friends left us alone and I knew something was up. Neither of us talked for a few minutes until he finally said ” Hey Maggie I really need to tell you something” then he paused. ” Well what is it then?” I said. He said ” I really like you, like a lot. And I was wondering if you would like to be my girlfriend?” But I thought he was joking (dared to do it or something) so I said ” If you like me so much then prove it!” He was a bit shocked, but then smiled:). He grabbed my hips and pulled me in closer to him, he looked Ito my eyes for a long time, then looked at my lips, and my eyes again. Then we both went on and did a soft, romantic, 11 second long kiss. It was absolutely perfect in every way. I had stopped first and turned to see my friend’s eyes peeking out. I just winked at them and turned back to him. I kissed his cheeks and then kissed him on the lips again, this time starting to make out a little. We kissed and made out for the rest of the night until my friends warned us that my mom was here to pick me up. We hugged and then went home for the night. That was the best night of me life!!!!

  5. avatarAmelia says:

    Jeff and I had been dating just over a month. He was the sweetest and most thoughtful boy I had ever met. We had spent so much time together and had gotten to know each other so well, but he still hadn’t made a move. One night in December, while out looking at Christmas lights, Jeff professed his feelings and officially asked me to be his girlfriend. Ecstatic, I of course said “yes!”
    He went on to tell me that the reason he had been so slow moving was because I was so special and he didn’t want to mess things up (I was just swooning at this point). He then proceeded to tell me that we could take things at whatever speed I wanted to, and that he only wish was that I felt comfortable and safe with him (is he not perfect, or what?!).
    It wasn’t until about a week later – the night before we left for Christmas break – that we had our first kiss.
    Thinking about it now makes me feel a bit awkward, just because I didn’t know what I was doing, however the moment was absolutely perfect. It was 1 am and Jeff was walking me back to the dorm. It had been raining all evening, but it had stopped for a while. On our way back, the sky opened up and we were soaked. We initially started to run back, but since we were already wet, decided to take our time.
    When we got near my dorm, Jeff stood close to me and said, “I don’t know if this is too soon, but this moment is so romantic. We can’t waste it.” He tilted his head down and kissed me – a peck – and that was that.
    I have never been a fan of PDA, so I grabbed his hand and led him around the back door of my dorm for us to try our kiss one more time. Still raining, he pulled my body close to his and we shared a passionate kiss in the rain.
    It was wonderfully awkward yet so special and a moment I will never forget.

  6. avatarAimee says:

    My first kiss was on halloween this year and I am only twelve.we had just left the school dance where we had slow danced,he was holding my hand and a friend came up to up to me and said kiss him already.so we did.unfortunatly we broke up 2 days later.

  7. avatarMelissa says:

    Although I had many kisses in the past, I’d have to say my first true kiss that was ultra romantic was the one I shared with my husband when we first laid eyes on our perfect son. David l. Gonzalez may not have been my first kiss but he was my first truly perfect kiss :)

  8. avatarBrittny says:

    Well, he was my boyfriend for over a month now. We had talked about kissing before. I told him that i liked surprise kisses. He replyed with a winky face. So we were in the fair. I could tell he was nervous, (im sure I was more), and we were in line to wait to get on the farris weel. When we got on he sat across me. I know right wow. The rest of the ride was awkward, well for me atleast. When the ride was over I walked away. As I was walking away he said “wait, dont go. Please, I… I… I love you!” reached for my hand, pulled me close and kissed me. when the kiss was over I slowly pulled away and said “i love you too”

  9. avatarreese says:

    My first was today and i am only 13

  10. avatarfelicia says:

    I haven’t had mine. Forever alone…..:(

  11. avatarfelicia says:

    i never kissed anyone

  12. avatarmichelle says:

    I haven’t had mine. Forever alone…..:(

    • avatarsally says:

      I like this guy and he likes me. we havent kissed yet…..but iv been dropping hints soo hopefully soon. But is it weird to kiss if your not dating

  13. avatarAngie says:

    A rainy night that I’ll never forget..He took my hand and lead me to a labyrinth in the park..After getting lose in the tiny labyrinth we walked around.. He grabbed my hand I just smiled at him and hold his smooth hands tight as I never want him to go.. the rain got heavier and heavier but we were just having fun in the rain.. Walking like weirdos and laughing like its only us in the world.. Suddenly he hugged me ,looked me deep in the eyes and I asked him wat do u want? He answered a kiss.. I was just smilling at him and gave him a kiss on the cheek I knew he wanted a kiss on the lips.. But he just smiled back and we walked and walked… After a while we stopped walking and I told him I was cold as we were really wet. He hold me tight and we were looking at each others eye but this time the feelings were stronger.. then we were really near to each other I titled my head,closed my eye and just let the magic begins..we started kissing with tingles in my stomach and a bright smile on our face we ended the kiss.. He told me that’s was the perfect kiss just like I wanted and kissed me again.. When we went home he sent me a sms: I love you and im so happy that u are here and I love u over everything.. That was the best night of my life..

  14. avatarMillymoo says:

    Okay, so i had a few pecks and stuff before iv reached this age (18) But, last week i had my proper proper kiss, i was txting This guy called ashley, that lived up my street, for quite a while, but i i never got the nerve to actually meet him up, so one friday night, when it was real dark, him and his cousin, and my twin, met in the park, and we were pissing bowt, and flirting, me and ash moved away from them, just bout to kiss, and THEN my mates arrive -__________- IKR!, so yeah, We decided tto leave it for that day, Then the next friday, he wanted to take me for a drive, because he got his new car, I got all tarted up n stuff, and he was in my living room waiting for me, i came down, and we got into the car, and drove round town, He stopped the car, somewhere quite romantic, like it was literally just his car there, then it started raining, so we decided to go mess round in the rain ;) I heard someone coming, so i put my hand on his chest, not seeing that i did, He was like, wtf, u doin lol, i was like, you never know there could be some mugglers n shit, and he giggled, i turned to face him, and realised i had my hand on his chest, so i took it off, and sort of turned away at the same time, if ya get meh, and then before i full put my arm my my side, he grabbed it, and leant in for a kiss, not a full on tounge kiss, just a lip one, with my kissing his top lip, and him kissing my bottom lip, it was the best feeling ever, totally magical

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