sick of being sick
By the time I graduated high school, I’d been hospitalized twice, diagnosed with pretty serious stomach problems, carried a heart monitor around with me (they’re not just for old people!), and at one point was taking 62 pills a day–all prescribed for one medical problem or another that I was dealing with.
Long story very short? I tried not to complain–I mean, I knew there were people way worse off than me–but I was totally sick of being sick.
While my friends were going to crazy underground parties, I was trying to catch up with school work I’d missed for health reasons–and forget about joining any of the fun teams like soccer or even cheerleading that my friends were on–my body just wasn’t up to it.
What was worse, was that when my mom wasn’t hovering over me in her super overprotective way, my friends would be overprotective. If we’d be out at a party where I knew kids were drinking, they’d lie to me and tell me there was just Diet Coke, because they knew alcohol would mess with my medication. In retrospect, I know it’s good that I didn’t drink when I was younger, but at the time, it sucked.
I felt left out, less cool, and just . . . a drag all because I was stuck in this body that couldn’t function quite properly. One day, I totally freaked and flushed all the medication I was supposed to be taking down the toilet. I just couldn’t take it anymore.
After a heart-to-heart with my mom, I ended going back on most of those medications–and over the years, my health problems have gotten a ton better. I can run now, which I could never do when I was younger because of my heart, and although my stomach still has its issues, I’m not in and out of the hospital like I used to be.
I’m not saying I’m glad I was sick or anything (I’m not some kind of masochist!), but I do think being sick taught me patience, showed me that I can get through just about anything, and made me appreciate every day I have where I feel great and can keep up with my crazy (still sometimes overprotective!) friends.
Have you ever had to deal with crazy health issues or limitations? What were they? How did you deal? Tell me in the comments!
sick of being sick