Body Talk: I Wished I Could Be Smaller

I used to want to be smaller

Words my momma taught me!

Most moms tell their kids to stand up straight, and mine was no exception. But no matter how often she begged me to fix my posture, I kept slumping my shoulders and crouching low in chairs at school.

It wasn’t that I wanted to disobey my mom, it was just that I wanted to do anything to hide the fact that I was 5’9” by age 12—a height that literally put me head and shoulders above most girls and boys in middle school.

I kept comparing myself to the other girls my age, but they all looked petite and cute while I felt like a giant monster. How would any guy be attracted to me when I towered over him? What made matters worse was that I wasn’t athletic at all, so I couldn’t even use my height to be the star of the basketball or volleyball team. But besides slouching, there wasn’t much I could do to be smaller. I got used to bending my knees to fit into group photos, wearing flats instead of heels, and special-ordering pants that could actually make it all the way down to my feet. Going to the mall with the girls? No luck there for me.

He made me feel like this guy.

I still remember the worst moment. I’d gone to see a ballet with a good friend. About 10 minutes into it, the guy behind me tapped me on my shoulder and asked if I could sit down lower in my seat so that he could see over my head. I have never been so embarrassed! I spent the rest of the show trying to be as small as I could—and feeling super self-conscious.

But then, when I went off to college, something crazy happened. My friends started talking about my height—not as a feature I should be embarrassed of, but as something they all were jealous about! And guys would constantly compliment me on how tall I was.

Taylor's taller than everybody. And GORGEOUS!

I started looking at myself a little differently in the mirror—if everyone else saw my elongated body as beautiful, why didn’t I? From that moment on, I decided to embrace it.

That’s why today, you can usually see me wearing kick-butt 3-inch heels, with my shoulders thrown back proudly. Sure I still bend my knees sometimes to fit into group photos (nobody likes their head to be cut off!), but my mom never has to remind me to stand straighter.

Are you a tall girl, or do you wish you could grow a few inches? Tell us in the comments!

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  • lamingtongirl

    I love being the smallest in the year. Enough said

  • Ja’Nautica

    Well, I’m 15 and 5’7″. Now i don’t feel so alone (or bad!) about being tall, I still have boyfriend issues(their so short) and my best friend is 4′ 11″..but even those problems don’t stop me from loving myself. You just have to be comfortable in your own skin and work with what you have!!

  • EmoGirlsRule!

    I’m really tall and slouch. Not cause i’m not proud that i’m tall. I just slouch. No idea why!!! I’m glad i’m tall. It’s easeir to reach things.

  • Parker1994

    I’m 15 and I’m 5″3 at most. Yeah it sucks.

  • Kat

    I was 5’8″ by the time I was 12 and and I am now 5’11”. I used to slouch so much, and the fact that I looked like my dad did not help. I felt manly and gigantic and I hated it. Much like you, it was in college that I discovered that it was FINE to be tall, and in fact most people are jealous (hey, you always want what you don’t have, right). I started dating my current boyfriend when I was 16 and only 3 years later did I start wearing two inch heals.

    Now? I’m not afraid to wear 4 (or even 5 if I like the shoe) heals at work, at school, around my boyfriend. And I feel great!

  • Bruca

    I’m 17 and 5’10”, and I have a love/hate relationship with my height. On the one hand, most of my girl AND guy friends are shorter than me and my two best friends are 5’4″ and 5’3″ (super awkward!), but on the other hand I get compliments all the time- especially about how nice my legs are.
    The hardest thing about being so tall is the fact that I LOVE to wear high heals, but when I do I end up being over 6 feet tall. Considering most of my guy friends are my height or shorter already, it made finding a prom date kind of a challenge.
    I still think I’d rather be a few inches shorter, but there’s nothing I can do about it I guess.

  • cpfeiffe19

    I’m 14 and 5’11 and I hated being the giant in the class pictures all through elementary and intermediate school but now I love it! I play volleyball and I’m so blessed to be able to utilize my long legs and arms when hitting and blocking. I’m taller than my oldest sister and my mom and I’m supposed to be like 6’4 or taller. My second oldest sister always got mad at me when I slouched and didn’t stand up straight as well and she drew a giraffe with the script “stand tall” all over my binders and folders and school books, and even the wall in our room. i guess you could say I was forced to embody the saying.

  • Vivi

    I feel very short and even I’m jealous of you! I would rather tower over guys! LOL! At this age, at least. I’m only 5’2 and a half inches tall! I think it’s great that you are tall!

  • Sarah

    I love being a tallie! 🙂 I am on a dance team and its beneficial when being in a kick line. You’re in the middle and long legs make beautiful kicks 🙂

  • TallGirl95

    I can really relate to this, as Im 16 and 5″11 and havent been able to embrace my height till now really. Throughout High school I was so conscious of my height as I was taller than all girls and most boys, to be honest there was even a time I loathed my height and would give anything to be smaller/shorter. However now at 16 Ive really embraced my height, I wouldnt say I love being tall but I appreciate it more than when I was younger.